Happy Monday, everyone!
What a beautiful day today! Over here, the sun is shining bright, after so many days snowing, then raining. All the snow banks are melting down, and something smells different in the air. The spring is right around the corner, y'all! Yaaay!!
You may think that I've been hibernating for the last 3 months or so! Well, in fact I felt exactly like the Quebec winter season has been: like a yo-yo. Some bright days, feeling somewhat energetic, and some other days made just to act like and hermit, to wrap myself up in a blanket and watch movies. This is all fine. And it is also fine if there are more of "hermit days" during the winter season. The normal daylight miss to our system, and maybe it is there to force us to slow down, to follow the nature in which we live.
But yes, I can also admit that, as I was aligning parties after parties around Christmas and the New Year I didn't have much time to write. Then it hapened that it simply didn't feel as right to be around. For a couple of months, my writing wasn't the same, but I was only half-admitting it 'cause, deep inside, I knew it would mean that it is time to take a break, what I was already feeling guilty for doing so! I loved so much and for so many months to write and to follow other blogs... how could it be possible that I need to move away from it for a while?? Is it like I am cheating, or abandoning them? Funny, right?
Yes, realising where my thoughts were going, and that blogging had become a sort of an obligation, I forced myself to stay away 'til this feeling of guiltiness (which creates the sens of obligation) goes away. Yes, you saw clear through it: it was mostly because of... The feeling of attachment. Something that I've learned to connect with (and still am!), somewhere last summer. Some people were and are there to teach me to recognise it when it is there, to question it, to understand its patterns, so that I can try to avoid or to transform it. Less deception and sadness can then occur. To learn to be someone without that exterior thing or person around. Who would I be if I would stop doing this or that? Would I be the same awesome person, being by myself? It is such an important chunck to go through!
Thus, yes, you must guess: I realised today that my feeling of guiltiness for not blogging finally went away! And the desire to write a post automatically came to me. I don't feel the obligation to do so. Only the happiness. It is a win/win kind of things. I'll be around whenever it will feel right, and it will be so just damn right! :) I thank you, Life, for bringing right on time the lessons we are good to take on. And I thank everyone, who wrote to me during this period of absence. *I also miss to read your blogs! You are real treasures!
Once again, I realise how I am closely linked to Nature's rythm. With the sun coming out more and more to us through the winter's clouds, as the sap of the trees starts to flow again, I also, am retrieving my complete energy. And crazy projects are on the way. More of permaculture, more of my raw food projects. I can't wait to tell you more... when it will feel just about right! ;)
TAKE CARE, BEAUTIFULS!
All the love,
Marie
What a beautiful day today! Over here, the sun is shining bright, after so many days snowing, then raining. All the snow banks are melting down, and something smells different in the air. The spring is right around the corner, y'all! Yaaay!!
You may think that I've been hibernating for the last 3 months or so! Well, in fact I felt exactly like the Quebec winter season has been: like a yo-yo. Some bright days, feeling somewhat energetic, and some other days made just to act like and hermit, to wrap myself up in a blanket and watch movies. This is all fine. And it is also fine if there are more of "hermit days" during the winter season. The normal daylight miss to our system, and maybe it is there to force us to slow down, to follow the nature in which we live.
But yes, I can also admit that, as I was aligning parties after parties around Christmas and the New Year I didn't have much time to write. Then it hapened that it simply didn't feel as right to be around. For a couple of months, my writing wasn't the same, but I was only half-admitting it 'cause, deep inside, I knew it would mean that it is time to take a break, what I was already feeling guilty for doing so! I loved so much and for so many months to write and to follow other blogs... how could it be possible that I need to move away from it for a while?? Is it like I am cheating, or abandoning them? Funny, right?
Yes, realising where my thoughts were going, and that blogging had become a sort of an obligation, I forced myself to stay away 'til this feeling of guiltiness (which creates the sens of obligation) goes away. Yes, you saw clear through it: it was mostly because of... The feeling of attachment. Something that I've learned to connect with (and still am!), somewhere last summer. Some people were and are there to teach me to recognise it when it is there, to question it, to understand its patterns, so that I can try to avoid or to transform it. Less deception and sadness can then occur. To learn to be someone without that exterior thing or person around. Who would I be if I would stop doing this or that? Would I be the same awesome person, being by myself? It is such an important chunck to go through!
Thus, yes, you must guess: I realised today that my feeling of guiltiness for not blogging finally went away! And the desire to write a post automatically came to me. I don't feel the obligation to do so. Only the happiness. It is a win/win kind of things. I'll be around whenever it will feel right, and it will be so just damn right! :) I thank you, Life, for bringing right on time the lessons we are good to take on. And I thank everyone, who wrote to me during this period of absence. *I also miss to read your blogs! You are real treasures!
Once again, I realise how I am closely linked to Nature's rythm. With the sun coming out more and more to us through the winter's clouds, as the sap of the trees starts to flow again, I also, am retrieving my complete energy. And crazy projects are on the way. More of permaculture, more of my raw food projects. I can't wait to tell you more... when it will feel just about right! ;)
TAKE CARE, BEAUTIFULS!
All the love,
Marie
YAY! That "guilt" crap is destructive... Staying away is healthy and I hear your freedom in your writing. Like spring you are renewed!
ReplyDeleteYes, Pati! It is a new stage for me.
ReplyDeleteWithin "Letting go and Breath", there is "Flexibility". Accepting to review any of my point of views and to adapt myself. Everyday if it's needed! Yes, I feel great and happy! :)
Thanks and cheers!